judgement

I did this to myself

I am not merely witnessing, 

But I am authoring my unholy

Descent into dishonor and disgrace

It's my fault 

I could have done something else 

I had thousands of opportunities 

To change course

I ignored my conscience and

Now I don't have one

I don't feel anything 

Instead of remorse

I fear punishment 

I have nothing left but the expectation of a fiery judgement